Light Descending

In the canonized account of Joseph Smith’s First Vision of God The Father and Jesus Christ, he tells of entering a grove of trees to pray to ask of God which church he should join in order to obtain eternal salvation. After he arrived at a predetermined location, he knelt to do what he had come to do. Joseph says that as he began to pray—his first attempt to give a vocalized prayer—he was gripped by an unseen power, “who,” he said, “had such marvelous power as [he] had never before felt in any being,” bent on his destruction. This power had such influence on him as to bind his tongue and plunge him into despair, but just as Joseph was on the verge of giving in to despair, he “saw a pillar of light…[descending] gradually” delivering him from this invisible enemy. In this pillar of light appeared two Beings: God the Father and His Son.

Drawing from this experience, I created the piece seen below, titled Light Descending—Delivered From The Enemy. It depicts that moment when the darkness has broken and that Light begins to descend upon Joseph. In that moment, Joseph came to know a few things, among them: God and Jesus are real and they will keep Their promises, in this case, quite spectacularly—he, Joseph, lacked wisdom, he asked of God, and God answered.

Light Descending—Delivered From The Enemy, Chemigram, 2025

To provide a little behind-the-scenes information, earlier this month I wrote about showing one’s work, and included a photo of a sketch, a video, and a picture of the conceptualization of what would become this piece, and will be a foundational part of other works I have in mind. I mentioned that I was at the very beginning of a new body of work, or a new direction I feel I need to take, and was fairly evasive about adding any additional info. Today I feel like I can pull the curtains back and more or less announce just what I’m up to.

As a member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints, I’ve felt a desire to create artwork that expresses my faith and beliefs, but haven’t known just how to go about it, being a photographer who really only works in the landscape. I had a few ideas, which I still plan to hash out and try to execute, but I don’t know how deep that particular well is. During the Christmas holiday, I had a storm of Inspiration: lumens and chemigrams would make excellent media for me to work with, and recorded all (I think I got them all) of my thoughts in my notebook(s): what topics or concepts to portray, what some of these images might look like (hence the sketch from the afore-mentioned blog post). Where I’ve settled, is a body, or bodies of work, largely devotional in nature, treating scripture, doctrinal ideas, and events from scripture and the early days of the Church. I’m cautiously excited about the whole thing. I say cautiously, because of the importance of these topics and events to me personally, as well as to millions of members of the Church, past, present, and future.

When I made Light Descending—Delivered From The Enemy, I sat down to just make a few “practice” pieces. This, and those “sketches” I made before and after, are chemigrams, and I began with the intent to expand on the conceptual sketch I had made, but I started swirling the chemicals and dripping them in a spiral on the paper. A fun part of making chemigrams (and I say the same of Lumens) is that they are highly unpredictable, serendipitous, and completely unrepeatable. This piece is all of that. What I set out to make was not at all what I ended up with. I didn’t know that I would end up with an image that I could call “complete” when I sat down that day. But that is what happened, and I’m really quite pleased with the image.

When I was adjusting and touching up the digitized image the other night, I had Jonah on my lap. He pointed to the bright swirl in the center and asked, not knowing anything about the image, “is that God?” As Jonah did, I hope you also see God in this image and feel Him in your life.

Show Your Work!

I just finished a book by the same title of this blog post, and it’s because of that book that I’m writing this blog post, and why I’ll be posting some of things I post in the future.

In my last post I mentioned some possible reasons why I had gone more than a year without publishing anything. I think a the root of it was knowing where a blog would fit in the world—my world—of social media. Basically, what is the point of me keeping a blog in 2024?

For me, one of the virtues of keeping a blog, is that there’s no algorithm to contend with or to try to understand or manipulate or be manipulated by. Another virtue is that the content is mine. At least I think it is…This website and blog are hosted by Squarespace, so I don’t know if there is anything in the Terms and Conditions that would permit them license to do anything with my content, the way we see Instagram and other social networks try to claim which then sends the internet in an uproar for a few days.

A big drawback for me, is that it isn’t a passively accessed or delivered system. By going on Instagram or Threads or whatever is the new social network du jour, audiences have a one-stop-shopping place. A blog is something to which an audience member has to deliberately navigate.

Despite all that, there are things that I can’t easily do on social media, or at least things I don’t want to do on social media. For example, I feel like adding a lot of text is cumbersome in social media posts. What to do in the main feed vs. stories vs. reels causes more confusion and stress than I want to put up with. Which brings me back to the book Show Your Work. The author, Austin Kleon, urges readers to share everything. And while social media does make it easy to do just that, I still feel like my blog is a better place for that.

Anyway, I’ll stop pontificating and get on with the point of this post, which is to share something I’ve begun working on. I don’t know if I’m quite ready to divulge what this work is about, but I at least want to share the progression of this and other bodies of work that I have in process. Also to share (vaguely) some background as to why this work is being made: I’ve felt a compulsion to make a certain type of work, work that deals with a very large part of my life and who I am. Over the Christmas Holiday, I had the time and mind-set to be open to inspiration. There was one particular image that began to coagulate in my mind, so I decided to set some graphite to paper to help me visualize what I want to make with photo paper and chemicals, and quickly sketched this:

When I say I’ll be using photo paper and chemicals, I’m referrring to chemigrams, a process of brushing, dripping, or spraying developer and fixer and other household chemicals on photo paper which all interact with the light-sensitive emulsion in their own unique ways.

As I haven’t done any wet darkroom output with silver gelatin materials in about a decade and a half, I didn’t have any paper developer to begin working on some images, so I had to order some and wait for it to arrive (it arrived 2 days ago) to finally do so.

Last night, with all the materials I’d need to get started, I made my “first draft:”

At this point, I’m largely just getting to know my materials and tools. I’m not expecting anything amazing yet. What I do expect is to learn and play and experiment. Soon enough, I’ll be making things that I’m truly pleased with.